it's about time

hey,
wow i'm surprised how much can happen in so short a time. okay well my aunt liz called e yesterday night and was all "do you wanna go with me to new york city?" i was so excited. i'm like yeeesssss!!!!!! i've never been to the city before, just upstate. i leave on september 3 i think. in october my aunt and i always go to salem mass for halloween. well this year we're going to spen the night there in a wicked awesome hotel called the hawthorne that is right where everything goes on. omg i was so happy when i found out. it's gonna be so freakin awesome!!!!!! well i signed up for cross country but i dont want to do it. i'm only doing it cuz there's really nothing else i can do. i'm not very athletic. i'm much more of the artistic person. my sister is the jock. so i was definately going to do it until i talked to my dad. he told me that if i do do it i'll be miserable. so i'm gonna see if my horse riding can count as my sport. i hope so. if i did cross country, practice would be everyday. 6 days a week. thats a lot. i wanted to get a job, ride horses, do drama, news paper, and guitar lessons and vocal lessons. if i did cross country i wouldnt be able to do anything but run. i'm also taking a course over load this year so i'll have tons of home work and no study. my biggest fear is that i would be too overwhelmed. i dunno. i really dont want to do it. i think our school should take into consideration that some kids suck at sports and dont really like them. so all i can do my dad says is do what makes me happy. and i wouldnt be happy doing xc. (o karen, sorry for bugging you bout xc) i mean i wanna have fun this year. cuz actually sice i've considered this, i've been a lil stressed just thinking about everything. i know i'm a sissy. i just really hate sports. i really want this year to just rock. i mean sophmores biotches!!!!!!!!! wahoo!!!!!!! o and drivers ed. thats hould be interesting? i wonder if they'll make us watch those movies about car wrecks. those are grose but kinda cool in a really twisted way. ^_^ so i honestly dont think i'm gonna do xc. i just dont want to. ( sorry david. we'll still have a blast tho. we'll still hang out when u get back from camp) ouch my head hurts. i ran a lil over a mile today. i dont like to run but it keeps me in shape. but i mean i know all through life we're gonna have to do stuff we dont want, but if i have a choice not to do it, i wont. and i dont have to do a sport this year. i could do it next year or even senior year. so i have nothing to stress over. hey my rents will be happy they wont have to spend all that $ for camp, and uniform, ect. my dad said they rather spend the cash on something i do want to do. wow my dad had an actual conversation. the most my dad and i usually ever say is "hi" and "when's linda coming home" linda's my mom. wow even tho i know i dont have to stress anymore. i still feel like i have something to worry about. i'm sure i'll feel alright when my mom calls the school. i hope everything works out. (commit to the lord whatever you do and your plans will be successful. proverbs 163) believe it baby. so yea so far thats all that gone on sice yesterday and today. o special shout out to muh grl kat who once again designed an amazing journal for me. i really appreciate it. i g2g for now. ttyl. love you all. God bless.
love sara <3

it's about time-illix

i hate you i love you
i just cant
remeber to forget you
who are you, who needs you?
you make me feel alive, i'd die so high
i'm crawling on the ground and i found i can fly

one of these days it all comes together
one of those days that goes on forever
think i sound crazy? maybe whatever.
what's it all about?

it's about life, it's about fun
it's over before it has begun
it's about you, it's about me
it's about everything between and i say
i say good-bye to you i say hi to you with no clue
it's about time that i
make up my mind

it's simple, confusing
the truth is i'm winning but i'm losing
i'm pulling and pushing
wont do me any good
it could, it should
i'm honest to myself that the truth is i lied

one of these days it all comes together
one of those days that goes on forever
think i sound crazy? maybe whatever.
what's it all about?

it's about life, it's about fun
it's over before it has begun
it's about you, it's about me
it's about everything between and i say
i say good-bye to you i say hi to you with no clue
it's about time that i
make up my mind

time is creeping behind me
surrounding around me
fading the words so desperately
now give me a reason that i can believe in
time is something you cant rewind

one of these days it all comes together
one of those days that goes on forever
think i sound crazy? maybe whatever.
what's it all about?

it's about life, it's about fun
it's over before it has begun
it's about you, it's about me
it's about everything between and i say
i say good-bye to you i say hi to you with no clue
it's about time that i
make up my mind

"i dont think you understand. there's just too much evidence that it's all been a lie. the conspiracy is not to hide the truth. it's to make people believe in it so completely that they question nothing." the x-files